back (but still sounding cynical and gloomy)

im back. gone nearly four months. only keeping my thoughts safe on my "absent-minded" mind. bwah- or sometimes, my phone organizer functions more as a diary than as what it is intended to be, an organizer.

still very optimistic battling over my pessimistic soul. still very indecisive.

as of this writing, though not perfectly decided, but at least have a very strong feeling - i assume that my broadmindedness / patience had finally left me.

i am with him today, he at the opposite table just approximately four feet away from me, but my spirit seems to be very distant and aloof and COLD.

dont know -

have to visit my buddy's page.